My mum left this physical realm at the weekend. It wasn’t sudden or unexpected. Some of you might know I had a challenging relationship with my mum. When she came into this reality, her soul took on a narcissistic personality disorder. At the soul level, her essence is high frequency pure love.
So, I grew up in a dysfunctional family, with my dad enabling her behaviour and my brother as the golden child who could do no wrong. I was the scapegoat. To the outside world, we had the perfect family unit, as my mum did whatever she could to create a false facade, showing people how happy we were and how much she loved us all. But behind closed doors, my mum was mostly covert in her narcissistic ways.
Although I don’t blame my mum – I used to do for many years, but my spiritual path and healing journey have helped me see the truth and heal – the experiences from my childhood turned me into a very broken adult who made bad choices. And it has taken heaps of inner work to turn myself around. If you’d known me 20 years ago, you wouldn’t think I was the same person. I was the opposite in every way.
I went no-contact with Mum at the end of 2016, so I’ve been working through my feelings of grief and loss since then. I always wondered how I would feel when she finally left, and to be honest, I feel relief and even joy.
I had this feeling, while she was alive, that she had a hold over me that I could never remove, even after going no-contact. With my psychic gifts, I was always aware when she was thinking of me and what she was thinking or feeling – which was rarely anything nice. This psychic gift isn’t limited to my mum. I often pick up on people’s thoughts and feelings, which can be overwhelming.
So, how are things now? Well, I definitely feel different, in a good way. I feel freer, lighter. But I can also feel her presence around me, and it feels wonderful. I connected with her in the Spirit realm shortly after she passed. She surrounded me with love, warmth, comfort and safety – the feelings that she’d never been able to give me while she was here in the physical. It was beautiful, bringing a lot of tears, but they were good tears.
Right now, she’s waiting for me to connect with her again so we can ‘have a chat’. My gut feeling tells me she’ll become a spirit guide so she can work off some of the negative karma she created from choosing her difficult life path, but I’ll have to wait and see.
The soul contract my mum and I made has lasted many lifetimes, with one of us being the abuser and the other being abused. Our roles alternated, creating endless karma that always needed balancing, until this lifetime, where it ended with me walking away.
The lessons we were helping each other to learn related to balance: our inner power, confidence and esteem, as well as self-expression. A narcissistic has these qualities in abundance. The narcissists target – who is often an empath – lacks these qualities. BALANCE is the purpose of karma. Without balance, this reality would not exist. We have light and we have shadow, but balance is always needed to keep everything moving and evolving.
I decided to share my thoughts and feelings for a few reasons:
- being vulnerable has always challenged me for fear of being judged, so I thought this would help
- I hoped someone might benefit from hearing this story, as many people have experienced something similar
- it might help bring understanding of soul contracts and why people do the things they do, and that they aren’t inherently bad;
- writing, for me, is a great way to shift my energy.
If I’m being honest, I’ve waited (and wished) for many years for my mum to leave this reality. Now it’s happened, it doesn’t feel real. Maybe it hasn’t sunk in yet.
I had Acupunture yesterday to help my energy flow, and I was told I’m good shape. But I need to have that chat with her, which I’ve been avoiding that last few days. Partly because Mum’s been enjoying a big reunion with the family, but also because connecting with her will incite too many tears. And that will be emotionally exhausting. But I won’t avoid her for too long, because the relationship we can have now she’s on the ‘other side’ will be what I always wanted while she was here.
Please feel free to leave a comment, or if you want to share your own story. I’d love to hear from you 💜.
Discover more from Elizabeth Keedy
Subscribe to get the latest posts sent to your email.
Elizabeth Keedy 
Hello Elizabeth
It’s so very brave of you to share your story and I’m sending you love hugs and healing energy. I’m sure it’s a very confusing time for you but it’s so good to hear the level of understanding that you have gained through your spiritual transition. Take good care of yourself and you’ll know when the time is right to connect with her again, in the meantime don’t put yourself under any pressure. If you ever need anyone to vent to my email address is mrsamw@hotmail.co.uk. luv n hugs Angie xx😘
Aww, thank you Angie for your heartfelt comments, love and support. Bless you 💜
Bless you Eizabeth for your endurance, bravery and beautiful soul. Your sharing this helps me better understand the similar relationship dynamic I have with both my parents – thank you 🙏 And I am very sorry for your loss. I know you are both more found than lost in many ways but the grieving process is still a deep, slow and painful one, whether the 3D relationship was good or bad. Big hugs and lots of love and healing to you 🙌💖 Time heals all as they say. Much love 🕊💖🌈☀️🌠🌹🕊🌹🌠xx
Thank you for your love and support. I’m glad my sharing has help you income way 💜
thank you so much for sharing your story , your honesty shows the beautiful soul you are ,wow you have healed so much in this life time . sending you love and light
Bless you Sharon, and thank you 💜
Elizabeth, I could send condolences & should. In 2008 my mom died alone, “found down” in her home. As her oldest daughter she left me in charge of her ” final mess”. Cleaning out her house, paying off her bills, not unusual. Relief, oh yes Elizabeth. Sadness, not so much. We truly could have been ” sisters” in another life. Alcoholic narcissist mom. I have processed she was a sick and suffering angry women. Went no contact at her request, a blessing? Scapegoat for sure. She did have a golden son, misery sure does love company. I can’t thank you enough for being brave, sharing so much, true feelings. I’ve not shared my true feelings openly, only with those who would not judge me for feeling relief at Mom’s passing.
Sending love & Hugs to you for being so open LeeAnn Dewey leeann9273@gmail.com
Thank you LeeAnn. Yes, a soul-sister. Sending love back to you 💜
Hi Liz – I just read your post – so open and honest – I am sending it to Ben as I am sure he will be able to relate to what you have said.
I have been thinking about you as well and meaning to message, I hope it is not going to be too draining for you when you are able to chat with your mum.
Lots of Love and thinking of you Jane xxxxxxxxx
Thanks Jane for your love and support. Hope you’re both okay 💜xxx
💗Sending you so much love Liz, and a little extra strength and stamina for “the chat”. You’ve got this my friend!💗 It’s always so helpful for everyone when sharing your story so thank you for braving that terrain! I can relate to your story and understand the paradox of your feelings of pain and joy/freedom. I’m so happy for your healing! 💖🕊️🌈
💛💛💛
Thanks Ashley 💜
Dear Elizabeth: I am sending you my deepest sympathies and much love today with the news of your mum. I was one of the members of your spiritual group and am still a frequent visitor to your EK Oracle channel. And so, I have come to know and care for you and your kitty cats very much. Thank you for telling us your story. The relationship you had with your mum so closely mirrors the one I had with mine. I knew that my mother and I had a soul contract over many lifetimes which was meant to culminate in this incarnation. But it took me much longer to heal from what I call my âmother woundâ. When she died 3 years ago, I shut myself down psychically because I was afraid that she would try to connect with me, and I wasnât emotionally capable of dealing with that. I have done a lot of healing work over the last 8 months. Your channel was a definite source of comfort and inspiration for me, and I am extremely grateful to you. Thank you for being a beautiful bright light for me during my darkest times.
I wish you much peace and love. For some reason, I feel that you must live close to the seaside because I see an image of you walking on the beach with the wind in your hair. Free at last.
Judith
>
Thanks for your love and support Judith, and thank you for sharing your story 💜
Dearest Elizabeth,
I am sending you my warm healing hugs and heart as you find peace and solace in your soul with your loss and reflections. You are loved!
Sandra 😊
Aww, thank you Sandra 💜
Dear Elizabeth, many blessings of benevolent compassionate strenghth. As you move forward on your pathway please know the Elementals are all around you. Be very kind, gentle, slow, & steady towards yourself. Be open & receptive to the love & light being gifted to you in this now moment. Surrender within the healing light codes, transmute, integrate, embody, & fly higher. Alignment & activations have arrived to create & cultivate new beginnings.
May your mum be in deep peace shinning her soul essence throughout the stars. We are always free, ageless, & timeless in the fractal of the Divine Cosmic Universe.
I am an amazing being of sovereign light & i love my love more. With ease & grace i consciously remember what my soul already knows.
With Deep Gratitude
Marie – Louise 🌻💛💫
Thank you Marie – Louise for your kind words 💜
Dear Elisabeth, I had the same experience with my mother. I send you all the love I can possibly express. You will be fine. I know all too well how it feel to go through this type of experience but now you will be able to make peace with her. It does take a great deal of courage to dive into this system of reality and we are all fighting a battle.
Thank you Alessandra for your support 💜
Dear Elizabeth! Thank you for charing
💜